Shut-up, Spock! We're rescuing you!

HA!!!


Take that , Livejournal!!!!!!!!! I am back!

Quick, send me story ideas for my new comic (as I now have time at work to doodle) and I will give you candy!!

Anime-thon?

SO.

Today is my 5 year anniversary with Mike. It would be good except I have no money after buying this bed. PLus everything at work is in the air.
I try really really hard but I feel like I am the girl who "just can never win" as a friend of mine put it. Don't feel sorry for me, in case you were, I don't. Just have to keep plugging away.

Every time I make a new friend they turn out to be not what I thought. So I guess the old friends I never see anymore are the keepers.


I hope you all drunk call me on St. Pats!

I have finally given in and joined World of Warcraft. After years. I am just a stubborn person, I can't fit the norm, you know? Like Disney World. I will *never* set foot in that place much to my bf's dismay.

So anyways, you'd think I would be exploring the country side or what not instead of playing nerd games here on vacation in NC but a few things are stopping me:

1) Poisonous snakes
2) Mike takes the car to work
3) There is no civilization in the immediate area for me to hang out in. There is, however, a Wal-Mart where 2 young men were buying handguns (they wore puffy jackets.. that's trouble to me)

SO that leaves me to take naps, have a beer and play WoW. I am going to be so fat when I get back.

I think Mike's place is haunted.
During the night, a sound like the kitchen cupboard opens and closes 'bang! bang!' all night. And it's loud.
This sound only occurs at night, I am here all day and there is no banging. It happens whether the heater is on or off and not at regular intervals. When I finally fall asleept, the banging becomes fast and sharp to wake me up and then slows down again. This has happened twice.

I asked Mike if he could check out what that noise was and he replied "No, that happens every night." Of course he is not scared.

I am going to try to make that same noise by banging the cupboards around today to see which one it was.... I think Mike will think I am nuts. At least it's interesting...

I always start my posts with "it's been a while".

It always is. I went back and read all my LJ posts from 2004... it is so weird to read things I wrote that I don't remember. There are the constants; Jennine postings, Sharla postings, Mike postings..... but also a sense of sadness and loss. I have come so far and now I am truly happier than I was.

I now feel as though Toronto is my choice and a good choice and I am secure and comfortable here. I don't need London anymore, I love visiting but my home is here now. It is fun and dynamic and there is so much opportunity!

I really want to tale a course at Sheridan (post grad) for 8 months to do what I do best; webdesign and art. It will cost me 6300 dollars though,and now i have a common law spouse (lol) and a lease to consider. How will I do it? I need to do this. My Mom once told me that I was jealous of her and my sister and it showed... I adamantly denied it but she is right. She always knows me so well. My sister is successfuly completing Chef Training and moving to Culinary Mgmt, something that seems so right for her, she is good at it and seems passionate about it (I haven't seen her passionate for a long time). My Mom is studying her passion, Homeopathy. I am working to pay bills. It isn't right! At some point I need to take this course before I get too old.

The problem is I want to get married and have kids someday (maybe not kids...) which means I need to do this for me right NOW. How?

How do I do this?

I am in North Carolina onvacation. This is so weird and cool! So far American beer sucks.

Where have the yars gone?
Do you ever feel like a different person than you were before?
I ruined some friendshiops due to me being a douche. I miss them and want them back. I miss the yars. And the tiny pot that boils eggs.

Can we hang out sometime guys?

I am drawing chibi pics of selena and jennine!!!!

My little garden plants are growing happily on my window sill, now that Guinness is not knocking them over.

Where are my rpg buddies? rarr

I am at work, taking calls. Here is a quick quick update:

I am looking for a place to live, anyone have suggestions? My boyfriend is being a bit conservative about it, but I understand abotu waiting to move due to money issues. He is getting all these bonuses from work, and I am freaking out here, but I am confident I can save enough money to begin paying my debts. I am having a slight lease situation with Cap Reit that I feel terrible about as I may have to ruin a situation for a friend. And general notice: the MSN horoscopes are crazy accurate. I am very impressed!

I am dreading OSAP in November, is anyone else worried? It can't be just me. At least I don't have another whole year of school like Jennine. Living on her couch is cool and I am looking forward to getting my own place.

Gotta go for lunch ciao

i need sushi

need

I hate being sick. this is all SHarla's fault from a friend of hers. BAGH.
ANd I wish i were employed. employment is so much fun.

I may be getting a car, if i can afford it, a little one from my cousin (he just bought a truck).
other than that, not much, watching way too much CSI. Why is Grissom so hot???? and NIck, damn its sad to miss a show.

Hello!!!

My bf stood me up and i am a bit pissed cuz i was counting on him. Now i have to go to a bbq at my mom's house with my aunt and uncle and we are late!!! good thing there's beer there.... and small children, oh i am dreading this.

in other news, i am unemployed and looking, lol sounds like a singles ad. i am visiting my best friend tomorrow and we're gonna hang out and have a great time. the less time i spend on my computer, the less my head and neck hurts. but that's my job.... oh well :):)

cya gottta put in my time

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wow I almost forgot about this place.


Long time guys!!! Wendi, my Java teacher knows you and says you're really cool, Bill Pulling. He's awesome, I got 100% on the last test!!!! (he speaks english :0 )

lol okay that was harsh. Well guess what guys, I am all set up in London for Avon here, go online and tell me what ya think at www.avon.ca. If you have an order you can email me at jasmine.paino@gmail.com.

Okay, now the journal part...

Life is so good. Family life has so much drama though... I wish my sister didn't feel like I was the better one to Dad. You know what though, I went through the exact same feeling, the yelling, the locking me out. I know what it's like. It's just her turn I guess. If that sounds cold it's not, but Dad loves her and thinks her bf isn't good for her for reasons like she writes in her LJ. It's that kind of mentality that scares me; you can't please em all, so just live you rlife your way. ANy other way is such a waste. I'd like to tthink I've become a much stronger person since moving to Etobicoke and living with hell spawn. It's actually great not caring about what others think sometimes.

I need to start a workout going here, I don't like running but I hae a weight machine here... any suggestions? Frequency? Diet? *looks at Wendi* potachos? can i have those still???


WHat would it be like to be a SQL guru? I wonder... sigh better get back to it.

See what 4 hours of sleep can do??

It's amazing how awesome friends are. I can suck at pool all I want but it's good times. And I learned about angel kisses. Also... well.. okay that wasn't so good. But it was generally good times!
I need a new job. I'd like to move back to Oakville. I wish Khan wasn't just teaching review. Is that normal?

It's all review!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh i am paying for this

Even the textbook is the same.
Oh I was a pagan/occultist religion lol Julia.

JOOOOOOLIAAAAAAAAA


29th!!!!!!!

Do you ever feel old? As in, you've experienced more things than you should have? I feel very old of late. My life seems to be going at a snail's pace and I have too many things to catch up on but it's not getting anywhere. I can''t even sit and read a book anymore without having something tugging at the edge of my mind to get done. Did I pay that bill? Can I pay that bill? Did I call my mother enough? Is there schoolwork due I don't know about? Did I remember to take my pill? Is it my turn for dishes? (as I write this there is a huge pile of them waiting for me)

When do I get to just relax and breathe a bit? I have so many debts, things due I cannot even imagine paying this month. When did it come to this? Is a guy really worth all this?

Mine is, I suppose... although I'd feel a whole lot better if he helped lessen my load a bit. I've been here for 4 years now. WHy does he still live at home? Why do I have to eat cream of wheat for 2 meals a day with only coffee for lunch while he has bbq? I am such a complainer. He asked me why I have been sad for so long. I can't remember the last time I was truoly happy, and it sounds so cliche but it's true. Highschool had Sasha in it, my disgusting ex boyfriend who never bathed and treated me like shit and used me for sex. Then college came, when Sasha followed me and I was seperated from my fammily, never ready to leave and then the debts came and Mike made it better but now I am still here, on my own and Mike will never understand. I think it was the days with Jennine in grade 11 that I was very happy. I never wore makeup, I had boy hair and I wore my Dad's clothes, I was so happy and independant and carefree. LOL. How things change.

My god, I sound 40!!!!!!! Like, old. (no offense to 35 year olds, that's still young!!)

Seriously, I need to lighten up.

ANy suggestions? Tea? Yoga? Vacation??

Hey guys, I am back into selling Avon.. I am so excited! I just love this stuff, it's fun and inexpensive and I just love it.


www.avon.ca If you guys are so bored, go there and then u can post here or email me at macross4@hotmail.com if you'd like to order something. Deadline is July 7th... help a girl out here lol

I AM GOING TO LONDON TODAY I love you guys at home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can' wait to see you and my beautiful kitty Tucker!!!!!

Okay my computrer ate itself. I have a habit of keeping it on all the time because I like the hum at night ( i know that's so bad!!!) and it kinda kept freezing, forcing me to restart. Now it boots up saying "Missing operating system". Will a windows boot disk fix this? I have XP home edition and an XP pro upgrade disk... argh

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 23.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.

"Mog Roith, the great blind Druid, calls for his bull's hide and bird headress with wings in order to rise into the air and view the battle he is directing."

--Maya Magee Sutton, PhD. 'Druid Magic'

What makes you laugh?: my friends
Who is your hero?: my Dad
Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?: ooh ooh Paul Gross
How many pairs of shoes do you own?: quite a bit and i always seem to need more (i'm such a girl)
Seriously... Where does the other sock end up?: well i think my black hole eats them
Who do you blame for your mood today?: the guys in my class for playing stupid horror movies
If the Internet were sex... I would: what the hell
Have you ever seen a dead body?: no
What is something scientists need to invent?: something to get black dye out of hair
What should we do with stupid people?: 'we' implies i am not one of them. you should love and pet us!!! :D
Have you ever broken a bone?: no... well a tooth...
Do you watch local news? Why?: no, i am so busy, i really should
What happens after you die?: i don't know
How big is your bed? Big enough?: no it's a single!!!!!!! try to fit my 240 lb boyfriend and i in it!!! somehow we do ....
How long do you think you will live?: i don't know, i think until 95

So recently I have been trying to eat healthier. Today, for example, I had a salad bar and water for lunch. I really don't like going to the sheridan gym... too many guys there all buff who like to watch the pugdy girl try to lift weights. And I don't know.... I should bring a book or something. I hate running. And I get these insane cravings for chocolate (which I try to replace with water). I am not sure what else to do. I kind of want to join the YMCA for their classes and the fact that my boyfriend is a member (for free, mind you, due to his mother's employment there) helps. We can inspire each other to go, because he's pretty lax about going. Money is an issue though.... isnt it always? I don't like walking... I would rather do something while reading or maybe watching tv... I have only free weights for equipment.

Any ideas, guys? Anyone wanna buddy up? Maybe you know someone at the Y...?